It’s been a pretty wacky week indeed.
I suppose I should say first off that the “rape rap” skit was actually what inspired TFTF in the first place, not the date with Doug. That said, it was the first shot and I had planned to be the last release, but since they wanted us to be more on a concrete schedule, I decided to go ahead and finish that one. Now here’s the thing, it had gone through reshoots after the first initial bout, and, as I am wont to do, I rushed through the edit only to find myself a bit uneasy with that first cut. Now, I find I’ve had pretty good intuition about what people will and won’t like, and with that one I wasn’t quite comfortable with releasing it, even though I uploaded it to the FTP (TGWTG usually works through and FTP; I don’t upload my own videos as when I do that they look pretty crappy because I don’t have a flash converter). So, I told the admin not to release that one, period. He agreed, and the Spooning with Spoony bloopers went up that week, instead. Everyone rejoiced.
Now, more recently, indeed there has been a sharp dropoff with my contributions to the site. This is for a myriad of reasons, biggest of which being that I haven’t stayed in the same place at all and am currently bouncing around the country like a tumbleweed in a Toyota Camry. But there are other reasons as well, part of it being related to money and the time it takes to make a video, part due to interpersonal crap, and a part having to do with some of the creative outlets by the boys over at 4chan (much appreciated, guys) and my general befuddlement over the whole thing. But the guys at TGWTG knew that it would be a while before I put something up again, take it or leave it, so imagine my surprise when while getting out of the subway I find a voicemail from Bargo telling me that the rape rap video has gone up. Gasp and shock! I call him immediately and tell him to TAKE THAT SHIT DOWN, as at the current edit, I did not intend for that thing to be seen by human eyes. This wasn’t Bargo’s call, and it wasn’t anything done out of malice, this I know, but I didn’t know the thing had been up until almost eighteen hours after it had gone up. So yeah, needless to say, I was a bit cheesed, but the general consensus at the Chicago end was that if we took it down now, it would cause something of a fiasco. Whatever, says I. I wash my hands of this, this was not my decision, all I know is that I have every intention of staying away from whatever fallout it has caused. The mood and sense I get from my friends and collaborators, ranging from righteously indignant to straight out embarassed, only enforces that inclination.
I want to say that the posting of the video itself stems from miscommunication and misunderstanding; I wish I had been asked before anything I make gets posted without my knowing it, but I also should have been clearer about that edit and my desire for it not to go up on the site. Or I could have been less of an idiot and, you know, deleted the damn thing from the FTP so that wouldn’t have happened. But it just slipped my mind. Live and learn.
Bargo called me about a day later telling me they’d gone ahead and deleted it, and by that point I was totally indifferent as to whether or not they did. Whatever this supposed fallout was, I don’t really care. As for the content itself, however, I feel no inclination to apologize for it as I had no autonomy in it being made public, but joking about rape is not something either I or any of my compadres feel bad about. I knew the reception might not be that great, which is why I wanted to sit on it for a while and give it another edit, but by no means do I feel bad about it or the content. If we can’t joke about sexual abuse, genocide, kiddie porn and all measure of unpleasant run of the mill bullshit we have to deal with on a daily basis, I think I’m about ready to jump ship on the Western Hemisphere. Get off your cross. We’ve all got it bad. I could go into all measure of cultural implications here, the reception of this v. the reception of Spooning with Spoony, but again, it doesn’t really matter. That one just wasn’t ready, nor was this site’s demographic ready for it.
I had planned on waiting a few weeks before posting again regardless, and I’m still planning on sticking to that. Unless something else goes awry, I do still plan on contributing, but it will be a little while.
Until then, don’t stop believing, streetlight people.